Certain uncertainties.

certain uncertainties
human beings live upon
were given more than a few names

fate, hope, chance, risk, luck, prospect, venture, investment, expectancy, gamble, weather forecast, paper-scissors-rock, upcoming fashion trend, actuarial science, he-loves-me-he-loves-me-not, etc

now take the perspective of the universe's architect
these certain uncertainties
could be a killer trick to make the framework of the game interesting for human beings

so they think it worth their while staying alive

definitely maybe it is


- a thought after overheard a stranger complained about inaccurate weather forecast

photo by sitruc. 2009, tokyo

Another Kind Reminder.

"Create Your Future or It Will Create You"
The little note I wrote myself on the morning I woke up from a bad dream.

And I pledge myself to Create, today and every day.

Phenomenal void.

Tranquility seen.

Epiphany inhaled.

Translucency heard.

Nonentity felt.

photo by sitruc. 2008, tokyo, japan

In pillow talks.

I was told about his life. His college drop-out. His relativity. His E=mc², Annus Mirabilis, version of universe.

Third book about him I read. The first person I found myself an admirer of. Blue sky of the day reminds me of this guy who explained why the sky is blue (in his paper on critical opalescence described the cumulative effect of light scattered by individual molecules in the atmosphere gives it colour).

Not where you are nor the moment you got stuck in.

The most cogent prison on earth is right between your ears.

Don't you wanna take a break?


photo by sitruc. 2007, singapore

Sometimes it rusts.

and it's not quite up to you.


photo by sitruc. 2006, hk

Tie me up so I can feel free.

we all born with a natural fondness to be curbed, cocooned, restricted.

til we're at the age of crawling.
then we fight and struggle aggrandizing what we know as freedom.

til we're at the age of falling in love.
then we give it all up.

photo by sitruc. 2007, hk

Sandcastles we build in the sky.

okay, who wants high ceiling when ozone is handy?


photo by sitruc. 2007, hk

Dear souls once were.

I am nothing but reactions to your actions.

photo by sitruc. 2007, hk

The quietest shade of loud.

What's inside?

Your universe.
My hodgepodge.
Someone's pandemonium.
Their secrets.


photo by sitruc. 2007, hk

The muddled.

朋友當中最聰穎會六種語言記憶力最好的, 也是最不快樂的一位.

在浴室想起以前某女友說過 "頭痛得像扭毛巾",
用力扭毛巾時擠出了水, 頭痛時擠出了什麼?
或是一點點不具名的天份, 重要與不重要的記憶也許.

如是更接近了混沌, 及快樂(?)

小孩子們: 切記別人說吃了會聰明的蔥是毒藥, 而祝你聰明伶俐的人正在詛咒你.

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It's my birthday and I wish my life will make more sense after the end of every day.

1120 to the power of two.

your theory does not square with the facts,
nor your wish with the desires.


graphic by sitruc, 2006

Hostage to all the yesterdays.

I have learnt so much from this world

that
I can no longer be myself.


photo by sitruc. 2006, hk

Option C.

New stack of CDs, movies and books purchased remind me of her question:

48 hrs a day (a) or 7 hands and 8 legs (b)?

My choice is c. 36 hrs a day + dual-core brains. Surely a better deal.

btw, I was pleasantly surprised by the mooncake comes with CDs and magazines. HMV mooncake! So they feed not only your brain and soul but your stomach as well. lovely.

P.S. May your lack of T and R begone soon, dear friend.

Answers from a bicycle.

(Follow-up post of "Mrs. Charon Pluto", pls check below)

I'm overwhelmed. By msn & icq msgs from you guys about the Charon Pluto post. Never expected so many of you would check my blog in these days after couple of months in idle.

Q&A session:

Q:xx xxx xxxx xxx xxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxx xxxx xxxxx?
A:A fish surely doesn't need a bicycle. And yes, both men and women, in my opinion, can each lives a good life without the counterpart (possibly maybe kinda true). Instead a man wants a woman and vice versa as we always want thing we don't actually need. That notion of need is a desire, thus.

Q:xxxx xx xxxx xxxxxx xxxxx?
A:Charon is the moon of Pluto the no longer planet, I used their relation to liken the moon-earth system to liken the woman-man relation, in turn. BTW, Charon is also referred to as Pluto I. That really sounds like Mrs. Pluto.

Q:xxx xxx xxxxx x xxxxx xxxx xxx xxxxx xxxxx xxx xxxx?
A:It's gonna take like a 1,000 words to explain my thoughts behind it. In short, moon is constantly orbiting the Earth while influencing everything on Earth from a distance without interfering where and how the man tracks. She even has the faith to give more room to the man, another 3.8 centimeters a year.

Q:xx xxx xxxx xxxxx xxx xxxxxxxxxxx xx xxx?
A:Don't get me wrong. I didn't mean that. Afterall there's only one moon for the Earth. And it's not trivial for you put only you eyes on it when you look up to the sky.

Q:xx xxx xxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xx?
A:No. The moon was around 20,000 kilometers away from the Earth at the very beginning. So it’s moved 430,000 kilometers in the the speed of 3.8 centimeters per year.

Q:xxx xxx xxxx xxxx xxxxx?
A:Because I read. lol.

Mrs. Charon Pluto.

"A woman needs a man like a fish needs a bicycle" Irina Dunn, 1970

and a man needs a woman like the earth needs the moon. Who stays 450,000 kilometers away from you, moving further 3.8 centimeters a year.

Spooky action at a distance.

A quantum mechanical phenomenon caught my attention when I was reading Einstein's work.

Two photons once undergone the same particle interaction remain quantum entangled with each other, that is, making identical decisions on pathways to choose among at the same instant in time. It happens even when they are miles or light-years apart.

This "Quantum Entanglement" is beyond the explanation of quantum mechanics since nothing travels faster than light so there shouldn't be any possible mean of communication between the photons (e.g. insufficient time to send message across the distance to act instantly the same).

Don't you find this phenomenon immensely romantic? Connections beyond reason take effect in particles surely transpire to us. (No wonder the intellectually charming yet emotionally deprived Einstein dislike this theory and derided entanglement as "spooky action at a distance.")

Generalized it grounds my thought that there are mutual influences, we may notice or we may not, between lovers, lovers-to-be, family, friends, people you know, don't know, passed by, will meet. And yes, when I meet the one, I should know about it. The particles tell me so.

Happy Birthday Willie.

I was reminded it was William Shakespeare's birthday a few days back. The man lives across centuries after his death. May the beautiful beautiful lines cudgel thy mind, touch thy soul, now and then.

"And since you know you cannot see yourself,so well as by reflection, I, your glass,will modestly discover to yourself,that of yourself which you yet know not of. "

"The very substance of the ambitious is merely the shadow of a dream."

"I must be cruel only to be kind;Thus bad begins, and worse remains behind. "

"Being born is like being kidnapped. And then sold into slavery."

"Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none."

"I pray you bear me henceforth from the noise and rumour of the field, where I may think the remnant of my thoughts in peace, and part of this body and my soul with contemplation and devout desires."

P.S. Happy Birthday, Mr. N. Will you ever seen this? Ms. L will have the answer. Wish you all the best and may your beautiful algorithm rock the world. lol.

Ball fell to the another side.

Tonight it turned out I got as wet as the kissing scene in Match Point,
with no one to kiss with.

[Match Point by Woody Allen, 2006, http://www.matchpoint.dreamworks.com]